I have been pretty quiet sense I have been back from Europe, I’m not exactly sure why but maybe for no one reason.  Part of the reason is I really don’t like to write and not particularly good at it.  So if I have to choose to write something or just update my Facebook, Instagram, or twitter I usually will choose the later.  A lot happened from the past blog post from April 22 and my return to America May 4th.  A stage Racing, crazy travel home, and looking forward towards the next goal.

The last race for me before coming back to the States was a race in Luxenburg.  I was please with how that race went, I felt strong and spent some time off the front of one of the races where I won the Climbers Jersey.  I held onto it until the end.  Not much else to report about that race.

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Then I had some crazy travel home which I wont get into but it took me a solid two days.  I was very happy to finally land in Durango!  Once I was home it was time to take a bit of a break, acclimate to the altitude, and then get down to business for the final push to prepare for US National Championships.  I think I trained harder then I have ever trained before.  Often I found myself cursing my coach, Corey Hart, and thinking to myself “is he trying to kill me?”  I stayed focused trying to eliminate anything that could throw me off course.  As the days ticked by I got more nervous and the day before I left, wow I was a bit of a crazy person.

I have been asked the question why do you think I was so nervous?  I think because I knew I could win.  I had the fitness needed to perform at my best, I had the best equipment, I had the best mechanic to prepare everything for me, I had done all my homework.  Now I just need to put everything together and win.  But there is always this doubt, and you get the what ifs.  I worked really hard to come up with a plan for the course and try to stay focused on the task at hand.  The morning of the race I was so nervous I couldn’t eat my breakfast and I thought to myself wow I am really really nervous.  I don’t think I had been this nervous for any other event in my career.  I arrived at the venue and started my routine.  The nerves didn’t subside as I went through the motions of getting ready and starting my warm up.  I got through my warm up with out puking and headed to the start.  On the starting ramp I nervously got into my pedals, took me about 30 seconds, again with the nerves.  Then the countdown started.  5,4,3,2,1…. I was off and everything went into focusing on what I needed to do.  Around kilometer 12 I had my first slight breakdown and talked myself into keep pushing until the turn around.  As I approached the turn around I saw my 1 minute person and realized I had put quite a bit of time into her.  Then I noticed the person chasing me was not close so that gave me some extra motivation to push harder.  Then I came apart a little around 23km, I knew this section was going to be tricky and I again talked myself into digging deep and with the help of James in the radio I got to 28 more easily then I thought.  I was on the last roller when I started to doubt if I would make it over the hill and was that the last one?  As I crested I realized yes that was the last roller and it was a big push to the finish line.  You can see the last KM here.

 

USPRO Time Trial Championships, Winston-Salem, NC

USPRO Time Trial Championships, Winston-Salem, NC (Casey Gibson) 

 

USPRO Time Trial Championships, Winston-Salem, NC

USPRO Time Trial Championships, Winston-Salem, NC  (Casey Gibson) 

As I crossed the finish line I had no thoughts running through my head, I was too tire and had no oxygen to my brain! Jame came over the radio and said I think you just won! He pulled around me and parked the car, a few moments later we understood I had won!  I was without words just thanking him and Courteney Lowe (she was in the car with James and helped me that day) for there help.   I was overwhelmed with shock, joy, excitement, happiness, I guess every emotion one could have.

USPRO Time Trial Championships, Winston-Salem, NC

USPRO Time Trial Championships, Winston-Salem, NC  (Casey Gibson) 

This photo was taken right after I found out I won.  Jame Stanfill and Courteney Lowe.

 

What does this mean?  I don’t know to be honest… All I know is that I am happy to have the nationals title back and wear the stars and stripes for one more year.  It puts me in a good portion for the olympic selection.  So now we wait to see if I am named to the team.  I am still over the moon.  Hard work really does pay off! Here is a link for the interview after the race.

USPRO Time Trial Championships, Winston-Salem, NC

USPRO Time Trial Championships, Winston-Salem, NC  (Casey Gibson) 

 

USPRO Time Trial Championships, Winston-Salem, NC

USPRO Time Trial Championships, Winston-Salem, NC (Casey Gibson) 

 

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Lastly, I have to say thanks to everyone who has helped me along this journey.  Some people don’t even know how you have helped, I am always overwhelmed with how caring people actually can be out of the goodness of there hearts.  My Coach Corey Hart has believed in me for the past 10 years, we have been though a lifetime together and he knows me better then myself in so many ways.  My family of course who has seen me succeed but also fail miserably but have always encouraged me to keep following my dreams.  My husband who puts up with my craziness and me being absent from home so much in the past four years.  He always is a good shoulder to cry on, he listens to me complain, and be crazy about overthinking everything, and keeping me present in the goals I have made.  My cats of course, Karen and Hansi for teaching me the importance of recovery.  My trade team for supporting me this season and being a rock solid group of girls that are not only my teammates but my friends.  My trade team staff, who got me through 3.5 months of crazy European racing and living.  Thomas who pushed me to my limits and made me see that I belonged in the front group at every race and I had the ability to win these races.  Patrick who always had our machines dialed and put up with my crazy perfections about the TT bike. Last but not least Jonathan who is numero uno!  He knows what I need before I ask for it, he is one of the best soigneur I have ever worked with.

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